Looking back

On the first day of 2008 and looking back to 2007...
What have I done? What have I achieved?
What have I regretted? What have I missed?
What have I gained? What have I lost?
Looking back, I have gained in some ways, I have lost in some ways...nothing is perfect in this world...what’s important is that u have no regrets in whatever u have done or not done...

In terms of friendship – I feel I’ve lost some...I admit I’m petty, but I’m just disappointed with the way that this incident happened...to think our so many yrs of friendship...well, it’s not a matter of whose “fault” is it, to me, it’s just a matter of “why”...but regardless, as long as this fren is happy, then it’s fine with me...
But at the same time, I feel I’ve strengthened some of my other friendships, that’s why we lose some, we gain some...here, I want to thank my friends who have stood w me thru my difficult times...esp. HY...without her, I think I couldn’t have gone thru my budget period, thanks for always willing to lend me your ears...other friends include HH, Su, BX, N, PP, etc. who have helped me in one way or another...

In terms of work – because we “lost” 2 of our very senior colleagues, this yr’s budget became extremely stressful...i’m forced to take on a more senior role with my mere 1 yr experience of doing budget w this company...the most senior is of course my manager...but with only her n the rest of the FAs are just newbies, is stressful...n due to my “perfectionist” character, I add on more stress to myself...this yr, I had to handle more stuff than I used to, n more than what others used to do or are doing, sometimes all these will just make me think why is it so unfair to me...as I handled more things, more mistakes arose...some stupid, some simply just missed out...when mistakes happen, I get angry with myself as I expect a lot from myself...there are also many disappointments that I've faced...but then I’m not going to list them down...just let them pass...
On the positive side, I received some compliments...from my bosses like MF & GW...MF – sent me some emails that made me feel super honored...n as long as I’m still with the company, I will continue to work hard...GW – she will sometimes come direct to me than going thru my mgr for some work...well, I’m glad that I’m given the chance to be able to go direct to her and do some things for her...esp the budget expense analysis which she was happy with what I’ve done...
Some HODs also gave some compliments – 1 HOD said thanks for my patience when working w her n that she has told her staff to learn from me, well, I’m not really a patient person, so I feel funny that people find me patient...another HOD who scolded me when I first did his budget...n last yr, when he finally realized budget is not as simple as he thinks...he thanked me in his email, n my mgr reminded him that he scolded me the previous yr, n so he got us some cakes as an apology...

That’s all for now...Happy 2008!